I am currently debating making my life worse by skipping out on some incredibly ridiculous role-playing activity in the course that I’m taking. I’d known it was coming because it was mentioned in the previous class before Labor Day, but I just refused to stress over it at least until I had all the details. Well, the details arrived earlier this week. As I read through the PDF outlining what I would be required to do, the anxiety just kept building and building with each word/phrase/sentence I read. By the time I was done reading I was already in tears and my brain was screaming at me that there was no way in hell it was doing any of this! (to clarify: it’s some culture activity where everyone in the class is assigned some made up culture, the details of which is unknown to your fellow classmates, and you are to arrive at class dressed and prepared to “act out” this assigned ridiculous culture.)
I understand the point of the activity is to show how difficult communication can be when varying cultures come together. I really don’t feel like I need to participate in this activity in order to understand. Like, of all the things I already know… difficulties in communication pretty much tops the list! I feel like I AM a culture of my own and can’t manage merging with the rest of the population!
So, at this point… I’m feeling anxious about it. More like downright panicky about it. I requested an alternate assignment and was denied. I have the option of attending but not participating in the activity. I’m worrying I’ll feel stupid just sitting there and not participating as much as I’m going to feel stupid and stressed and panicky if I *were* to participate (which I simply cannot do). Seriously, every time I start to think about the things I would need to do for the culture I was assigned, I get flooded with thoughts and immediately start to cry.
I’m just not sure what to do.