December, already. So much has been going on this year that it’s no wonder it almost feels like it went from January to December in just a few weeks’ time!
Lack of funds caused me to procrastinate on Christmas shopping (and of course, finding the spirit), so I’m now doing the “OMG it’s Christmastime” shuffle! Keeping it a bit lean this year in anticipation of having a lot of expenses in the coming new year. Thankfully, my kids are all old enough to be able to understand.
Had a fabulous birthday weekend with my love and her family. She surprised me with a beautiful new necklace which I love to pieces! Took the kids to a festival but it sorta fizzled out … the promise was bigger than the delivery … LOL! Oh well, it happens!
Got surprised by the delivery of some Boston Creme Pie complete with a candle and a chorus of “Happy Birthday” while having breakfast at the diner with my love — that was an experience I never really wanted, but clearly lived through! Social anxiety be damned!
Oh! — and there was also the joy of slipping my rear into a pair of size 8 jeans and not even having to suck in to button and zip them! Still hoping to lose another 20 pounds or so, but not busting my butt to get it done. Figure it’ll come in it’s own time now that I’m growing more comfortable with myself and just generally feeling *good* about who I am and the choices and plans I have been making.
I wrapped up the weekend back home with my kids again for some gifts and a cake. All in all it was one of the nicest birthdays I’ve had in a while. 🙂 And of course, the icing that topped it all off was the signing of the final divorce papers, which are now on their way to the courthouse for processing! That 90 day wait wasn’t nearly as bad as it might have been — at least it went fairly quickly! Happy Birthday, Merry Christmas, and Happy Bright Shiny New Year to me! 😉
Still on the job hunt. I have another interview next week which I will be most likely be “practicing” with my therapist ahead of time. It’s getting frustrating as heck and I’m trying so hard to not resort to hitting up my Xanax. I’ve been pretty self-reliant in that regard and only fell back on it once so far this crazy holiday season — and that was at a pretty big Thanksgiving dinner event with my love and a slew of her friends I hadn’t yet met. So, I’m not beating myself up about it!
So as 2012 draws to an end and the chapter closes on the marriage that never should have been, I’m finding peace with myself and those around me as well as being infused with hope for all that will be written in the chapters to come. Despite the struggles, it’s looking to be a wonderful life going forward! 😉
Love, joy and best wishes!