There are days when I mourn her loss, though I never really knew her at all. What I want most is to love her. And what I’m truly mourning I think, is my failure and inability to truly see her, acknowledge her, console her, wrap her up in my arms and love her, encourage her, and help her grow to see safety in the world around her so that she can become the best she can be.
I’ve began prepping for this year’s NaNoWriMo. Despite my social anxiety, I’d really like to make an effort to immerse myself in a supportive writing environment, which means, I could use some writing buddies. I joined forever ago (2012) and haven’t kept up. But I’m committed this year, really I am.
Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. What is World Suicide Prevention Day? According to the International Association for Suicide Prevention (IASP) website, it “is an opportunity for all sectors of the community – the public, charitable organizations, communities, researchers, clinicians, practitioners, politicians and policy makers, volunteers, those bereaved by suicide, other interested groups and individuals – to join with [them] to focus public attention on the needs of people at risk of suicide, suicide attempt survivors and people bereaved by suicide, with diverse activities to promote an understanding about suicide and highlight effective prevention activities.” This site is jam-packed with
Current situation: thoroughly enjoying this tune. Though I really feel way too old to be… Love & Light
I’ve had three false starts at a blog post today. Each time I’ve nixed it because it just felt too dark and depressing. My head is kind of stuck in the storm clouds as of late and I’m not really sure how long it will be before I can escape. Everyone is always so “think positive,” “have faith,” blah, blah–those things might sound good but they aren’t very helpful to a person who is drowning. Just swim and you’ll be fine. I don’t know how to swim! Just kick your feet and paddle your arms. Thanks for that bit of