…these are the Days of [My Life]. Just can’t seem to shake the funk. The days all seem to run together and I never feel like I get any time to do anything. Work has been pretty steady with frequent extra hour opportunities, for which I am grateful. BUT between work, school (I have mentioned I went back to school again?), being a taxi to one of my kids and just all the other everyday run of the mill bs I feel like I can’t get ahead and I certainly can’t relax. I’m not really sure what I was thinking.
I should be working right now. Money is, afterall, the only thing it seems one needs to get by in this world. But I’m distracted and have a million and one things battling inside my head. So much that I want to say and do. Yet I sit here, fingers poised over the keyboard, unable to find the words or put them together in a way that makes sense. Another million thoughts start whizzing around. The anxiety stifles output. I’m so tired of anxious thoughts. So tired of questioning myself at every moment of every day. So tired of always
It might seem like it’s easier to interact with others online, but social media can provide new stressors and a deeper sense of isolation. Source: For People With Social Anxiety, The Internet Is A Blessing And A Curse | HuffPost I’ve mentioned before that I read articles for a living. It’s not the best living, but it jives fairly well with my social anxiety, generalized anxiety, depression and other diagnoses that impact my ability to successfully work outside the home, and it’s better than making no money at all. Anyway, in the course of that I came upon the article
The feeding frenzy for transcription files continues. So far this morning I have done the dishes, bleached the counters, wiped down the washing machine, scheduled my dog’s grooming appointment and refreshed the transcription queue about a gazillion times. Now, here I am – about to give up for the day, or at least until much later in the day. Maybe “dinner time” will allow me to snag a workable file. Until then, I guess I’ll putter ’round the house, write this blog post, maybe write a few creative pages?
Ok. So, I’m situated on the couch today, trying desperately to find a transcription file that isn’t total hell to work on in the middle of a feeding frenzy due to recent shortages in the work queue, so that I can earn at least a couple of bucks this week, and, I’m going to be honest, I’m failing miserably. Files are flying off the queue and coming back repeatedly due to difficult audio and accents and I’m basically getting nowhere. Next browser tab (because, really, who ever doesn’t have a million open tabs at any given time these days?!), I