Driving myself insane these days, literally. There is so much going on in my life all at once that I just can’t deal with anything productively, it seems!
The love of my life got stuck in Louisiana with Isaac. I still have no job, no source of income at all, and I’m not getting any positive response from any jobs I’ve applied to. Began divorce filings today, but still arguing about the details and really wanted an amicable resolution. No idea where I’ll be able to afford to move to without a job and with three kids to support.
I feel very alone. Very sad. Very overwhelmed. I’m missing my mother and wishing she was here to help guide me through all of this. Wishing I had stronger family bonds and people to turn to and rely on.
Feeling bad for the stress my kids are experiencing too. Which is essentially my fault as well.
The school year has started back up for them and so at least they get that relief, but it leaves me with countless hours to stress and think and stress and think!
I guess it can’t get much worse — so I just need to hang in there and keep trying to deal. When it’s all said and done, it’ll be better for everyone! In the meantime, though, it’s pretty bad. 🙁