I am OK – and feeling anxious is OK, too!

I recently ordered a self-help book to try to work on this social anxiety stuff by myself. After days and days of searching and reading reviews and checking suggestions on various forums for Social Anxiety, I decided to buy Overcoming Social Anxiety and Shyness: A Self-Help Guide Using Cognitive Behavioral Techniques.

I’ve just crossed over from Part I to Part II. Part I of the book is all about understanding Social Anxiety. There’s a lot of information presented that I, obviously, am already quite familiar with, but there is also a lot of information presented in ways that I’d never thought of it before. Reading Part I went really well, and it was interesting, for the most part.

Part II begins to discuss actually overcoming Social Anxiety. At this point, I’m beginning to struggle. The concept of both learning how to and forcing myself to change my thinking patterns is, quite honestly, anxiety-producing for me. I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed and unsure.

As part of the process, it’s suggested (recommended) that you keep a “Complete Thought Record” in order to learn to identify your anxiety triggers and the real feelings you’re feeling so you can learn to talk yourself out of them. (At least, that’s how I’m understanding it.) I’m having trouble grasping this concept because when I’m feeling anxiety and on the verge of an anxiety or panic attack, I’m literally unable to identify my feelings at all beyond the need to RUN/escape. Everything becomes a huge blur of emotional turmoil and because my irrational thoughts are in control instead of my rational thoughts, I’m not able to accurately identify actual feelings.

So I’m feeling a little stuck and hopeless at the moment. I’m going to try to press through… slowly. The concepts presented make sense to my logical self. Maybe I need it broken down into even smaller steps.

M.A.Young

M.A.Young is driven by her love of words, passionate pursuit of knowledge, and desire for a more inclusive and accepting world. A survivor of childhood sexual abuse, she struggles daily with mental health issues including generalized and social anxiety, C-PTSD, depression, and self-worth.

She is the sole contributer to and founder of AnnotherVoice, a relatively unfocused blog originally created as a sounding board for the myriad of thoughts running through her mind. Her writing runs the gamut from fiction and poetry to current events and politics. She strongly encourages everyone to pay attention to the world around them and to vote!

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