Yes, it’s been a while, again. Have been pretty wrapped up in life lately and there is so much going on right now that it’s literally insane.
Still taking low dose Zoloft with Xanax as needed (though I’m finding I very rarely need the Xanax — which is nice).
Biggest changes – I’m 100% sure it’s time to get a divorce. Complications – Lost my contract employment due to lack of organizational funding. Clearly, I’ve been job hunting and applying to positions daily but the anxiety associated with having to have a regular job that I have to go out to, and where I will ultimately be forced to interact with people is scary. It’s been a very long time since I’ve done it. I guess I won’t truly know until I do though. Unfortunately, six years of what was ultimately “self-employment” does not qualify me for unemployment benefits in this lovely state. So I’m currently without any source of income at all.
Kids are growing up way too fast. I now have two full-fledged teenage girls. Fun times!
So I’m trying to just maintain hope that things will work out one way or another. Sooner would be best, obviously.