Struggling to get on task

I should be working right now. Money is, afterall, the only thing it seems one needs to get by in this world. But I’m distracted and have a million and one things battling inside my head. So much that I want to say and do. Yet I sit here, fingers poised over the keyboard, unable to find the words or put them together in a way that makes sense. Another million thoughts start whizzing around. The anxiety stifles output. I’m so tired of anxious thoughts. So tired of questioning myself at every moment of every day. So tired of always

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Still Standing

“It’s been a long, long road this way But I’m still standing today, And I don’t care what anybody say, ‘Cause I’m still standing, I’m still standing today.” — Michael Franti & Spearhead – again. The past week or so I’ve probably played this song about 100 times or more. It’s uplifting. It’s motivating. It’s somehow comforting. I’m coming out of a fog that essentially smothered my entire life. The past 2-3 years I listened to practically no music at all. My audio library was filled with tons of songs, once powerful and meaningful to me, that irritated me to

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To Medicate Again, or Not

I’ve medicated in the past. Celexa, Lexapro, Wellbutrin, and Zoloft, as I recall. But not… Paxil (Paroxetine). I don’t really know how I feel about it. Yesterday was another follow-up with my new-this-year family doctor. Aside from confirming the addition of hypothyroid to my list of diagnoses she asked whether I would willingly try Paxil. This was after a torturously long, thoughtful pause (we’re talking a whole five minutes here!) and having disclosed the list of SSRIs tried in the past. Well, and combinations of SSRIs, too. It was clear she was racking her brain for something to suggest that

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Social Anxiety in the Internet-Sphere

It might seem like it’s easier to interact with others online, but social media can provide new stressors and a deeper sense of isolation. Source: For People With Social Anxiety, The Internet Is A Blessing And A Curse | HuffPost I’ve mentioned before that I read articles for a living. It’s not the best living, but it jives fairly well with my social anxiety, generalized anxiety, depression and other diagnoses that impact my ability to successfully work outside the home, and it’s better than making no money at all. Anyway, in the course of that I came upon the article

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Even Scarier

In March 2017 I wrote the post linked below and asked regarding Trump: How are all these people still standing by this man? Tell me, please, I’d really like to know … Original Source Post: Scary Times, Indeed. | AnnotherVoice | unsilenced Today, I am still trying to figure it out. Honestly, how did we get here? More importantly, how do we change the trajectory of this insane path we’re on before it is completely irreparable? Have we already passed that point? I admit, I’ve been complacent. I have so much difficulty navigating my own personal life and feeling powerless

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