Oh my aching back

It’s been another long day here. I barely got my hours in for my regular work, let alone managed to do much related to my writing. Spent four hours basically sitting in the car (as a favor for family) and between that and the odd ways in which I contort myself every other day of the week in order to get things done, it’s definitely taking a toll on me. I’m in so much pain — the part of my back sort of between my shoulder blades and down the center — that I had to call upon one of

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What If

One of these things is not like the other. One of these things doesn’t belong. Can you tell which thing is not like the other by the time I finish this song?                    — Sesame Street Ah, yep, me. I don’t belong. It’s not a new feeling. I’ve honestly never, ever, in my entire life for as far back as I have memories felt like I ever belonged anywhere. Not within the circle of my immediate family, my extended family, amongst my peers at school, or even those few years where I

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Can’t take it

Seriously. I just can’t. I’m so tired. Why does everything have to be so f*cking hard? Why do I always feel so alone? Like I’ve got no one ever to lean on or talk to or depend on? I’m just so tired of this horseshit life. I’m angry and hurt and sad and so many things all at once. In two weeks it will have been 27 years since my mom passed away. I’m gonna be brutally honest about the fact that I’m still sad and angry about that even! Like, why the hell did she have to leave us

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The World SUCKS: A Rant

It’s no secret that I’ve been struggling to find a regular job for well over a year (close to 2, at this point). I can’t even begin to count the number of jobs I have applied to during that time period, but I can tell you how many have requested an interview: ONE. One interview request in 2 years. That’s ridiculous. (No, I’m not counting my 3 month stint with the temp agency, which was the reason I had to turn down the ONE interview request, because it came exactly 3 days after I reluctantly agreed out of sheer desperation

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Day of Reflection – I’m Thankful for …

I’ve been a little absent, but thought I’d pop on and wish the internet world a Happy Thanksgiving! In the spirit of the holiday, it’s the opportune time for a bit of reflection and despite all the trials and tribulations of the year, I am most thankful for two things (okay, maybe it’s really four things!) — my three beautiful children and my amazing girlfriend. With their love and support, I’m finding that all things are possible, and I honestly have no idea how I would manage to do anything without any of them. <3 Loves of my life, all

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