Working with Anxiety: Arrrgghhhh

I’m feeling the strain especially hard these days. The contract work I’ve been doing the past year or two has fizzled out and the bank account is working its way down to zero — yet the bills continue to accrue. The simple fact that I need to find another way to bring in some money in order to continue to live is obviously presenting itself as yet another stressor in regard to my already moderate to severe anxiety levels. I think I’ve mentioned in the recent past that I am back on medication (sertraline HCI – the generic equivalent of Zoloft®)‎,

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Life moves fast

It’s been a busy week around here! We hit a drive-in movie theater for a dusk-to-dawn marathon (which required a full day of recovery afterwards), kiddos headed back to school and with that we threw two back-to-school/meet the teacher nights onto our to-do, started training for a new project assignment, turned out my final paper for an art appreciation class (that drove me insane because it’s not really my thing, but pulled out a 97 as my final grade – yay!), failed a post office exam in my continuing quest to find a “regular” job, and wrapped the week up

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A Job, Maybe

Yay! Finally secured a contract for a work-at-home position to hopefully help make up the income loss from the conclusion of my previous contract. Or maybe not. I officially signed the documents just yesterday, so I’m not sure yet what the deal is in relation to signing into the system and finding no work assigned to me. I’m grateful for the opportunity, but if I can’t get in clocked hours then it isn’t going to do me any good! I’m going to give it a couple of days and see if that changes. In the meantime, I’m still looking for

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Work in the Real World: What I’ve Learned

Yes, I realize it’s been a little while. At this point, it should be obvious I’m prone to taking hiatuses … LOL I have been working the past six weeks or so. At an office building. In the real world. Doing the highway commute. Racing the clock. Counting down the minutes at the end of every day. In doing so, I’ve made some observations: I don’t like wearing dress clothes on the daily. They are way beyond by comfort zone. I feel like a clown or a kid playing dress-up. It puts me out of sorts. I feel all kinds

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Breaking Point — Is this it?

Over qualified. Under qualified. Kiss my ass. I need a job! Job satisfaction? Who cares! A paycheck in and of itself is more than enough satisfaction at this point! Ridiculous! Officially nine months since I began looking for a new job (or any source of income at all, really) and still flailing. No job = No home. My divorce was final in December. I totaled my minivan in the same month. Used the bulk of my savings to buy a new car (well, not a brand new car, obviously!). Watching my fabulous credit score that I busted my ass to

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