What’s Up? & Randomness

I get it. I’m basically hit or miss these days. Also, quite busy trying to stay afloat and on top of all my other responsibilities, but then again, who isn’t? There’s been a huge uptick on my Facebook Page views (but no “likes” <teary-faced emoji>) and I’m not really sure where from or why… it’s driving me a bit mad. Also, random friend requests. What’s up with that? Anyone else?? It’s looking like we’re about to get into full-swing spring–thank goodness–and my mood is improving a bit. I’ve been trying to do some self-work but there are days (sometimes several

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Can’t take it

Seriously. I just can’t. I’m so tired. Why does everything have to be so f*cking hard? Why do I always feel so alone? Like I’ve got no one ever to lean on or talk to or depend on? I’m just so tired of this horseshit life. I’m angry and hurt and sad and so many things all at once. In two weeks it will have been 27 years since my mom passed away. I’m gonna be brutally honest about the fact that I’m still sad and angry about that even! Like, why the hell did she have to leave us

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Losing the war

It’s getting harder to wake up each morning, yet I continue to do so for my children more than anything. They’re almost all grown. Nowhere near ready to tackle life entirely on their own quite yet. I’m growing more hopeless and tired of struggling all the time. Every day. Every single day. Why is it so hard to get by in this world? Is it because I just can’t conform to the expectations of this ridiculous society in which we exist? Is it because I am ultimately unworthy? I can’t really seem to figure it out. I’ve continued to push

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Long time, no talk!

Hiatus seems to be my middle name… sorry about that! All settled in and kids are loving their new school. Had a few hurdles and still struggling but it’s all worth it to have the kids in a good school district, making friends and getting involved in activities like normal tweens and teens. Still trying to find a job suitable to my anxiety struggles but feeling pretty defeated about the prospects since it’s been so long again. I know people find work-a-rounds — even I have in the past — it just seems that the work from home job market

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The World SUCKS: A Rant

It’s no secret that I’ve been struggling to find a regular job for well over a year (close to 2, at this point). I can’t even begin to count the number of jobs I have applied to during that time period, but I can tell you how many have requested an interview: ONE. One interview request in 2 years. That’s ridiculous. (No, I’m not counting my 3 month stint with the temp agency, which was the reason I had to turn down the ONE interview request, because it came exactly 3 days after I reluctantly agreed out of sheer desperation

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