Can’t take it

Seriously. I just can’t. I’m so tired. Why does everything have to be so f*cking hard? Why do I always feel so alone? Like I’ve got no one ever to lean on or talk to or depend on? I’m just so tired of this horseshit life. I’m angry and hurt and sad and so many things all at once. In two weeks it will have been 27 years since my mom passed away. I’m gonna be brutally honest about the fact that I’m still sad and angry about that even! Like, why the hell did she have to leave us

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Full Plate = Tons o’ Stress

Hustling to get a steady income coming in again, constant job searching, wedding planning, pushing the kids to get their schoolwork finished for the year… now add: mega cleaning, yard prepping (so our landlord can show the property to potential new tenants), packing to move, registering the kids for regular public school for next school year, getting them set with school clothes and supplies… I think I’m going to go mad. My stress/anxiety levels are through the roof! How does it always end up being everything all at once? Obviously, wedding planning is going to take a backseat for the

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M.I.A.

MIA for about six months. I know no one is heart-broken over it! LOL A lot of changes have transpired in that time. I’ve moved — in with my love and my kids in a new town. I’d love to say that everything has merged together seamlessly, but that just isn’t the case. It’s taking a lot of adjustments and tolerance. I think I’ve mentioned that I mother two teenage girls — it’s no picnic — and they seem sure they are not in need of any mothering. So day-to-day relations are a struggle. Picking battles are a struggle. Not giving

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Playing Catch-Up … again

Let myself slide quite a bit over the past few months on this little blog of mine. So once again, I’m driving by to play a little game of catch-up! I’m just about finished with my first three courses since deciding (again!) to go back to school. It’s been interesting, to say the least. Definitely struggling with — okay, maybe struggling isn’t exactly the right descriptive word, more like stressing, worrying, stressing some more, crying, quitting, panic attacking, shutting down over — writing assignments, research papers, forum postings and peer responses. Overall though I’m managing to chug along. As usual,

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