There are days when I mourn her loss, though I never really knew her at all. What I want most is to love her. And what I’m truly mourning I think, is my failure and inability to truly see her, acknowledge her, console her, wrap her up in my arms and love her, encourage her, and help her grow to see safety in the world around her so that she can become the best she can be.
December, already. So much has been going on this year that it’s no wonder it almost feels like it went from January to December in just a few weeks’ time! Lack of funds caused me to procrastinate on Christmas shopping (and of course, finding the spirit), so I’m now doing the “OMG it’s Christmastime” shuffle! Keeping it a bit lean this year in anticipation of having a lot of expenses in the coming new year. Thankfully, my kids are all old enough to be able to understand. Had a fabulous birthday weekend with my love and her family. She surprised
Yes, yes it is! Amidst all the other changes currently in process, I have opted to also throw in therapy. Year of change it is! I’m hopeful that 2012 essentially marks the beginning of my new life as a whole being. This isn’t my first go at therapy. I have been in and out, here and there, dabbling in various methodologies and modalities since I was about 12 years old. Never, ever once before did I emerge from my initial consult with as much a sense of hope and belief that this could possibly be one of the best choices