Breaking Point — Is this it?

Over qualified. Under qualified. Kiss my ass. I need a job! Job satisfaction? Who cares! A paycheck in and of itself is more than enough satisfaction at this point! Ridiculous! Officially nine months since I began looking for a new job (or any source of income at all, really) and still flailing. No job = No home. My divorce was final in December. I totaled my minivan in the same month. Used the bulk of my savings to buy a new car (well, not a brand new car, obviously!). Watching my fabulous credit score that I busted my ass to

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Let the Chips Fall?

I like control. I like security. I like knowing what to do and how to do it, when to do it, and why I’m doing it. I like order. I like lists and schedules, organization, and reasonable plans of action. I don’t like having absolutely no control — or the feeling of having absolutely no control. I don’t like not knowing what I’m doing or how to do what I feel like I need to be doing. I don’t like waiting. I don’t like this whole “let the chips fall where they may” thing that seems to be occurring in

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My World – It’s Changing…

Yes, it’s been a while, again. Have been pretty wrapped up in life lately and there is so much going on right now that it’s literally insane. Still taking low dose Zoloft with Xanax as needed (though I’m finding I very rarely need the Xanax — which is nice). Biggest changes – I’m 100% sure it’s time to get a divorce. Complications – Lost my contract employment due to lack of organizational funding. Clearly, I’ve been job hunting and applying to positions daily but the anxiety associated with having to have a regular job that I have to go out

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